Movie with Management

Its fucking cheebye cold out there.

So i headed down to Fashion for a meeting (that i called for) with Wendy. I spoke to her about my annoyance and she's going to do something about it. So lets just wait and see.

I met James while on the way to Fashion, and he told me that they (William, Keen, Vicki and him) were all going to watch a movie at Cathay. So i told him that i'll decide later (which obviously i will go) and that i had a meeting. William helped me book my ticket online and it was the green light. So yay.

We watched Letters from Iwo Jima. Its one fucked up movie please. I got nauseous halfway through the movie because the cameraman practically threw his camera around the scenes. It made me nauseous and i so do not like the feeling. I seriously still feel like vomitting now.

The movie was long and draggy and i dun know what else. Stupid show.

I is still feeling the vomitting sensation. Do not provoke me to throw up over you.

James says i'm fat. If i'm fat then he's black. No pun intended.

CDM with William and the rest.

Work has been a drag recently. It feels as if i've lost the passion for everything. Everything is getting on my nerves.

Sick, quarrels, disagreements.

The three things that make me annoyed. I've really had enough. This time round, i really want to transfer no matter what. Zee's leaving, so why should i still bother about anything anymore? Perhaps part of the reason why i'm staying on as a server is because of him. But now, i dun think i really need to any longer.

I know W dotes on me alot. I can sense it. But maybe its time to let go.

On a brighter note, James asked me to CDM on Sunday. I agreed. But after work i didnt go home straight away. I joined Eve and Lp at Mac whilst we waited for the rest to appear. Apple, Woodblock and Michelle appeared soon after and we all left to cab to Cine.

We ate at HongKong Cafe. The food there wasnt the best i've had, but oh well, its still a eatery. We all finished our food, except for Apple and Michelle. Then Apple found something in her food. It was a *piece of metal scourer, the kind you use to wash dishes in the sink aka DIRTY DISHES.

(* note that it wasnt a FULL WHOLE metal scourer. But a piece of the metal thing.)

I was horrified to the max.

Apple called the server over and he was too stunned to do anything. So he got it from me, when i asked him what was he waiting for and to get his manager over. Then his manager came over, and got hell from me because of no food quality control. Then he offered to change the dish for Apple but she seemed really turned off by the food already, so she declined. He took the dish and walked away, without even apologising for anything.

I got even more annoyed.

He went into the kitchen while the rest of us gave our opinion on the issue. Then i couldnt stand it anymore and i yelled at nobody in particular, saying "So are we all supposed to wait for your apology?!"

He came back and apologised, then he re-offered to replace Apple's dish. But Apple still didnt want it, so we called for the bill, paid and left.

I reached home and showered then i left for Cafe Del Mar. You have no idea how long i waited for a damn cab please. By the time i reached CDM, it was twelve in the afternoon. I was one tired person please. But still, i had fun watching W and K having fun.

W, K and James decided to go swimming. So Vicki and i had to carry all their stuff.

Then W fell asleep on the bed and Kenny couldnt wake him up. So Kenny disappeared while James flared. It was down to Vicki and i, talking away. Naddie was attached there as a cashier also.

I finally went to bathe and when i came out, everyone asked me where i was going because of what i wore.

We wanted to go sit this Sky ride, but too bad it was closed. So we went over to the taxi stand and sat the Maxi cab! K asked me to help massage his shoulders and he asked W if he got give me bonus or not. I laughed.

We went to Cine to check out the movie times and then we walked over to PS to eat Aijisen. The Supervisor or Manager was fucking annoying to the max. Everyone was fucking hungry and dead tired, but yet she kept telling us about the green tea being changed to what price and i dun know what else. W just stared at her while K rested his head onto the table, V was on the phone and i dun know what was James doing.

She rattled on and on and i just told her to do what she wanted to the price and add all she wants.

Then she went away.

It was peace at last. But the way they greet their customers was fucking annoying and James kept getting goosebumps. And James eats like a horse. But i dun really care anyway.

We went to watch Protege at Cathay and i met Denise Ong and Karen. I was watching the show halfway and i fell asleep which was fucking retarded. We left Cathay at midnight and i cabbed home first. =)

Okay, now i have to get my ass to Clarke Quay. Okay bye.

Flip.

Love dun let me go.

Sigh.

Everyday its problems and more problems that i have to solve. I dun even know why the living fuck i bother to solve them problems. Sometimes i wish i was the undead.

Plus, i want to transfer over to PR. But, i think W will flip.

Like seriously flip.

Fuck the nineteen years that i've lived

Sometimes, i think back and i realised that i've been through alot of shit. I think about the past between Mel and i, like how we were not together-gether and all the shit, tears and probably blood that i've shed for the whole period of time. But never mind, you wouldnt understand anyway.

Nobody understands how i work. Each and everytime someone tells me that i've given them attitute and shown my temper is talking fucking bullshit.

FUCK YOU.

Nobody has seen me at my worst, yet.

I may be the insane one that blows up at times, but thats just annoyance actually. Its not even full blown eruption yet. At times, i feel like grabbing a rock glass and bashing it onto someone's head till their skull cracks. I can want to be able to feel the blood rushing through my hands and head. Then maybe i'll be appeased by all the blood.

Its fun!

I am psychotic. I've never denied that.

Thats how i am. I'm the straightforward person that tells you to fuck off in your face.

I think about my results and where i can go after that. Then the reality check hits me again, as i remember that i didnt quite make it because i failed Maths and Science. Fuck Maths and Science please. This is the only two subjects that are full of bullshit and is of no real use
to anyone.

I dun see me telling the customer to x1-y1/ y2-x1 whenever i'm talking to them. It'll be retarded wouldnt it?

Then i think about it again, i cant go anywhere already. I've reached the end of my education. I'm tired, i seriously am. Everyday is a battle to fight for something that i dun even know about. I have nothing, except for a N and O level certs plus alot of other nonsensical certs. I dun even know why i bother to keep fighting for something that i dun even know if i need in the future.

Fuck life. Bottom line.

All i have is the knowledge of spirits, champange and wines. Even so, my knowledge is limited, because everything i know is bits and pieces. So in the end, it's as though i dun know anything at all.

Bah, my life sucks. I dun even know why i lived nineteen years in vain for.

YM LAH.

My nineteenth birthday.

Its my birthday today!

And i'm at home because i got so fucking wasted after work yesterday.

I had a Flaming Lamborgini from Kathy (my regular), tequila shot from Effen, Waterfall with two Barcadi 151 shots from Alan, plus an extra shot of 151 from Alex. I met up with the rest at Kandi, feeling alittle bit high already. Then Alex (he held my hand! HAHA.) brought me over to Mos because he saw my friend there.

I screamed when Adam was right in front of me, then i looked behind him and saw Eve. I'm like what the fuck please. Those that went with me, got drinks on me. I was so fucking high but i remembered that i dropped my Corona and i threw another into the reservoir. Plus my cigarettes were also in the water and i think i was being an overall noisy pest.

I was fucking wasted and i didnt know how the hell i got into a cab. I only woke up when Zee asked me to give directions to my block. How the hell i got home after i got off the cab was a miracle, because i was fucking wasted to the max.

I only woke up at 4pm, wondering where the hell am i.

Then i realised that i fell asleep just like that, in my Rolling Stones shirt. I amaze myself sometimes.

Now, its off to Clarke Quay because i have to make Alex die with six 151 shots. HAHA!

Baby's reply.

Its Valentine's Day!

Santos celebrated his birthday yesterday, too bad i wasnt around to witness it. I was with Zee at Youth Park, Cine.

I asked Adam for a solution to my question and i ended up posing the question to Zee after some mass encouragement from Adam. Its official, its not an affair.

I feel relieved at his reply. I finally found someone who likes my violent personality. He likes it when theres someone of the opposite gender daring enough to go against him. For example, he can ask me to fuck off, and i can tell him to fuck off back. How interesting, i found the perfect guy. Its just too bad theres one complex problem between us.

Seriously, i feel safe in his arms.

If he didnt meet his wife earlier then he met me, i think i would have been married by now. =S

But i'm not a slut, and i dun break up people's marriage.

Curious though, his transsexual friend doesnt like me. I wonder if its because she's afraid.

Me: "Baby, if one day a customer molests me, will you get angry?"
Him: *looks at me and nods.*
After awhile.....
Him: "But then again, i believe you know how to protect yourself right?"
Me: "Of course, you should know whoever that touches me will get free piercings* after that."

*I'll jam my corkscrew through your face, is what i meant by "free piercings."


Remember three years ago, i went for OBS (16th -20th Feb 2004) and i fell in love? The guy i fell for was Elroy, and he's goddamn good looking now.


*wails* OH WHY DID I GIVE UP?!







The shorter guy.


OMG, i think i am going to die.

Poly Sucks

In case you were wondering, i got 25points for L1R4.

It sucks balls, and there goes my MCM course. I need to go down to the different polys and appeal to get interviews.

RAH!

Snitch

Fwah, dun let me find out who became a snitch and blabbed to everyone because my corkscrew is waiting to be jammed through something.

Anyway, sorry W. I felt your disappointment. If i had a choice, i wouldnt want things this way either. Its got nothing to do with Eve or anyone else. Everything was my fault.

Again, i'm sorry. =(

CDM on a Sunday.

It was off to CDM (Cafe Del Mar) straight after Saturday's work. Eve and i got there first and we met up with Paladine and Angie. I waited 30minutes for a menu and i ended up asking for one. Then i waited another 30minutes for someone to get my order, which nobody did and i had to wave my arm around so that someone can finally notice me and get my order.

I ordered a Mojito and it came only after 25minutes (and after i complained to Bear that i havent gotten my drink yet). The drink came in a rock glass and it wasnt a really good Mojito.

Me: "So it takes around half an hour for me to get my mojito aye?"

Guy: "Sorry."

Me: "Its okay."

Eve and i decided to walk all the way to 7-11 to get stuff. I spent like $50 just walking there and back. Paladine and Angie left after awhile because he had a headache. So Eve and i joined Botak and James. I swear Botak and James have this great passion for flaring. They flared non-stop throughout the whole time at the beach. Santos and his friend, Candy only came at 12pm with the Martell.

We all waited for Zee and i fell asleep for awhile, only to be woken up by Eve because Zee messaged me. He was on his way, reaching Sentosa. By the time he got there, i was supposed to go to work already. But Santos psychoed me to take an MC, which i did.

Then Zee came and we went to walk around CDM and to be wowed at their bills on hold, because their bills is fucking alot. We left for KM8 after that.

KM8 was the bomb. We got free coke which we spiked with Martell. Then Santos and Zee flared while i started learning how to spin the tin with my left hand. I got bored after awhile though, so much for learning how to flare. We ordered food and it was the bomb. They flared somemore and i fell asleep.

I only woke up to Zee's presence beside me. Then i was about to fall asleep in his arms, when Eve pulled on my leg because she wanted me to go shower with her. So i had to leave his hug and go bathe.

When i came back, it was quite dark already and i heard Rej! Then i talked to Terence and we discussed our poly options. He left after awhile, and so did we. I forgot to say bye to Brant though.

Santos and Candy went off in a cab first and Zee, Eve and i walked out to the bus-stop to waited for the bus. The three of us ended up at Vivo where we called for a cab so that we didnt have to queue.

I fell asleep at home when i was supposed to go meet Eve for Bar None. She is so going to kill me when she sees me again. =)