fuck love

i shall blog now.

i woke up at 2 and i came out of my room to watch tv.

and the tv screen was all static fuzz and blueness.

there was like no tv to watch.

then i realised that some asshole connected the CTV to the telly.

and the stupid thing wasnt working even when i did the right things to it.

so in the end i yelled for my dad.

he told me to do this and do that with the remote.

or rather BOTH remotes.

and still thescreen remained blue.

and i got so fucking pissed that i told him to pluck out the fucking CTV.

he fucking yanked out the tv plug and said that he wants to sleep.

and i was like FUCK YOU.

in times like this.

i wish a thousand curses to fall upon him.

i swear.

i'm that evil.

looking back.

what has he done for me?

he doesnt give me my allowances.

he doesnt buy stuff for me.

he doesnt know what i want in life.

he doesnt know what i like /dun like.

so what does he know??

yeah.

what he only knows ix peanuts.

peanuts abt me.

have you ever met a dad who knows peanuts abt his own child??

well i have a real live example right here in my own fucking house.

all these years.

from when i was P3.

he's been siding with my second sister.

and that was 8years ago.

8 fucking long years.

so you cant really blame me for being who i am.

the 'trainings' i had.

made me harden my soul.

made me believe that a father's love was non-existant.

that how i lived for the past 8 years.

enough?

all these while.

he's been encouraging me to give up school and go find a job.

reason being he says i won't make it out of sec sch.

fuck.

he wants me to be a rubbish collector.

can you now see what kind of dad i have??

now you know why i hate to stay at home??

can you see the reason??

MEN SUCK.

that just about sums up these 8years.

go read my friendster profile if you want.

*fuck love