Saturday, May 30, 2009

Only Love

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

[Chorus]

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Since when?

Ever since i passed and received my license, i received many congratulatory and well-wishes from everyone.

Thank You.

But the shit deal is that i have to endure them telling me that i shouldnt be riding and whatnot. I myself know how bad things are on the road. Even my own sister told my mommy that they have to get ready to get my coffin when i get my bike.

WTFF is this?

Please, i fought to get this license. Do me a favour, just applaud and say congratulations.

PS: Darling, i know you dun like me to ride. But it means everything to me right now. =) I'll be careful okay. I wont do any stunts.

Friday, May 22, 2009

About my TP.

I've taken this 2B course for like eons already, stopping for months at a time for work and whatnot. Then now that i'm back at school, i decide to follow up and go for TP, of which the first Tp i failed.

Freaking 32 points.

All the most nonsense points that is avaliable, all i kena.

I was so depressed, that i cooped myself up at home for the whole day. Not even bothering to answer my phone or msn. It was the worst feeling i could ever feel, and i swore i would never feel like that again.

On this 21st May 2009, i went for my second TP. I made stupid mistakes like, forgetting to signal,delay in moving off and even letting my leg touch the ground.

I was so pissed off that i felt like chopping off my leg and fingers.

Its like any of these small mistakes can contribute to my failure. Plus, the leg on the ground thing constitutes to a immediate failure.

I was one worried dog.

I called Adam to whine for half an hour, then i went up to wait for results. It was the bloody Tension room all over again. The TP came in and called alot of random numbers. But not one was close to my set of numbers. I was freaking out big time.

Then all the TPs left, and i got confused because they didnt call out my number at all! Then how now brown cow!

Then the instructor started reading out numbers, with no link at all. When he was done, he said, "the numbers that i just called, you passed!"

The whole room erupted.

I swear, in one go, all the tension was lost.

I passed, with 16 points.

I feel like i'm at the top of the world right now.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

TP2.

Its finally freaking TP day again!!

I pray with all my heart that i will pass.

Fuck all of those that want me to fail. This is the Day i Pass.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Lost.

First of all, i did a muthafuck of a mistake. My float had a short of $30. I was so freaking pissed. Thank you for listening.

Somehow, i'm feeling lost.

I dun know how i should be feeling about our friendship. I really am at lost, because i have never felt this way. Its like how i would go to the ends of the earth for you, for any request that you make.

But somehow, i feel something stirring in me when i watch you and what you do.

Strange, very strange. I must read my emotions now.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

No sleep= Grumps.

I am now very very sure that i am not a morning person.

I had some gay workshops on Monday and it was the gayest alive. Do i look like i need workshops for presentation and moral values?

Stop bloody wasting my freaking time.

I ended up snapping in Marketing class, at the lecturer, when he decided to probe about why i looked so down. I started writing my thoughts onto a piece of paper, writing out how i felt and what will happened. I felt that it was time to walk away. It was horrible, i felt horrible. I TKO after that and only woke up when class ended.

But, there are some losers who cannot keep their bloody mouths shut at all. What happens with Adam and i, doesnt even concern you one little bit. Stop trying your best to be "old friends" with me so that you can fit in with my clique of people. You and i, just dun gel, at all. So stop trying your best to make things happen.

This is teletubs, Po.

Our presentation day finally loomed into reality. We were all so excited, calling and msning one another, the night before, asking what the other party was wearing.

We all arrived decked out like we were going for somebody's wedding. It was so much fun and we all thoroughly enjoyed it.

Angelie and i.

Alcan (the sexy beast) and i.

Katie (in five inch wedges) and i.

Shak and Adam.

Shak, Maximoose, Alcan and Allie.

Ahdum and i.

Sherman

My group's picture. Dun ask me what the fella is doing to my photo.

We had one heck of a long day, with our presentation getting cut into half and all. I was angry, but my strained calfs upstaged my anger. My three inch heels are no joke man.

We went for dinner and coffee, then it was home sweet home after that. =)

Monday, May 11, 2009

Underneath Your Clothes.

I used to be able to sing this song very well. But, sad to say i ruined my voice with all the cigarettes and alcohol.

Bah!

Who cares! I love this song, its somewhat how i feel right now. =)

You're a song
Written by the hands of God
Don't get me wrong cause
This might sound to you a bit odd
But you own the place
Where all my thoughts go hiding
And right under your clothes
Is where I find them

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey

Because of you
I forgot the smart ways to lie
Because of you
I'm running out of reasons to cry
When the friends are gone
When the party's over
We will still belong to each other

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey [x2]

I love you more than all that's on the planet
Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing
You know it's true
Oh baby it's so funny
You almost don't believe it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I'm tied up to this feeling

Underneath Your Clothes
There's an endless story
There's the man I chose
There's my territory
And all the things I deserve
For being such a good girl honey [x2]

Sunday, May 10, 2009

The time will come.

You have no idea how much i value this friendship.

There are so many things i have to contemplate. Things i have to think about. The things i say sounds cliche, i know. But its true. Its all true.

I cannot accept that i can be in the middle of someone's r/s, no matter how much i love you. It is not fair for me or the person you're gonna be with. Yes, she may accept it, but i will not.

You say you dun want things to change. Sad to say, life is all about change. Yes, i've been there for you since Day 2, but things will be different once you make your decision.

How would you want me to accept being the "third party" in other sense.

When the time comes, i will need to walk away.

My heart will break because i will always love you very very much.

This is too much, i need to read into my emotions. I need to think. I'm becoming the saddest and the most depressed.

On a Good Day:

Alittle bit lost and
Alittle bit lonely.
Alittle bit cold here
Alittle bit fear.
But i hold on
And i feel strong
And i know that i can

Getting used to it
Lit the fuse to it
Like to know who i am

Been talking to myself forever yeah
And how i wish i knew me better
Still sitting on the shelf
I never
Never seen the sun shine brighter
And it feels like me
On a Good Day

And it feels like me
On a Good Day.

I'm a little bit handed in
Alittle bit isolated
Alittle bit hopeful
Alittle bit calm

But i hold on
And i feel strong
And i know that i can
Getting used to it
Lit the fuse to it
Like to know who i am

Been talking to myself forever
Yeah
And how i wish i knew me better
Yeah
Still sitting on the shelf
I never
Never seen the sun shine brighter

And it feels like me
On a Good Day


And it feels like me
On a good day


Been talking to myself forever yeah
And how i wish i knew me better yeah
Still sitting on the shelf
I never
Never seen the sun shine brighter

And it feels like me
On a Good day

Been talking to myself forever yeah
And how i wish i knew me better yeah
Still sitting on the shelf
I never
Never seen the sun shine brighter

And it feels like me
On a Good day

Friday, May 08, 2009

Happenings.

I had my first class test.

It was the worst day of my life. I studied and still i couldnt answer properly. I dun understand why. I was quite flustered and Adam wasnt making things any better. The fella was making me stressed, and by the time i went out of the classroom, my hair was like all over the place.

I hate Marketing.

My class is still fun, although there are alot of complex situations happening, and i have no idea why i am like the intermediary for everyone.

Tsk.


We are like hardcore smokers. We come out smoke only, like big problem happened.

I dun know why ah, half my class smokes. So its like hardcore smoking gang balls. Its so fun to have a cigarette and talk cock outside the school gate.

Fiona, Nick, Ahdum.


Fiona, Bryan.

Ahdum, Max, Shak, Angelie.

Ahdum and Fiona!

Girls at the smoking area.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

First class outing!

I have the best classmates ever.

We had to do this self-introductory thing for our first Communications lesson and my group did about, "Why are you here?" thing.

It was bloody hilarious.

Adam: "My name is Adam, i just finished Army, i'm here because i got no purpose in life."

Then thats it, all the nonsense started from this fella.

Derrick: "I'm Derrick, i'm here because nobody wants me."
Mike: "I'm Mike, i never go for holiday before, just go KL, eat and come back."


Fucking funny, my class.

We went out for class outing the other night. It was shit funny, because there were like close to thirty of us that went.

The nonsense games that we played, and the freaking eight towers we consumed. It was all good man.

I really had alot of fun that night. Cheers to you, DMCD0949A.