Saturday, September 30, 2006

85

For the longest time, i wasnt late for tution today. But i cheated, because i cabbed to Tamp.

I'm sucha smart bitch.

Anyway, i reached my tutor's house and i saw no shoes outside. How about i thought Sher bluff me today got tution? Then my tutor open the door and she was super surprised to see me being the first to reach.

I hear from Sher that i got an award today. No, not the award for Least Days Of School Attended. But for NYAA, an award i was supposed to receive last year. They cheebyed me by only giving it to me this year.

I just felt like swearing. Because i'm fucking annoyed.

And how about i hear that my English has dropped to a C6.

Fucking hell. Must be all the swearing i've been doing.

Went to Neh's house after dinner with Sher. Her cat is fucking fat and cute please! Fat like a sausage. Then the fur is super alot, like afro hair like that. Persian cats are nice! Then i went to see her snake. I couldnt find it at first, because i was alittle afraid to approach the cage.

Wait it bites me how? I dun want to die.

Then again, its cool to die from a snakebite okay. Imagine yourself all pale and dead, then got two holes on your arm or what. Then your friends' are going to tell their friends that they have a friend who died from a snakebite. COOL OKAY.

Its cool because i say so. Theres no arguement about it.

I didnt get to see her monkey because it was with someone else. But its fucking cute okay! The eyes big big one. Itsa slow loris!



Hung out at her house, exclaiming at people's friendsters and whatnot. Then helped her pack her clothes. She has too many underwear please, i swear. All the sexy sexy ones she bought back from Thailand. Funny can!

We went down to Tamp to pick up Ahgu, because he's a disabled person today. Apparently he sprained his ankle while in camp. I also have no idea how he did it. But its funny please.

So we went down to 85 to eat. Guo wei came down also. As usual, he was his usual annoying self.

Uncle: "Okay, total %$^**%$."
GW: "How much ah?! $12.60?
Me: *stares at GW's bewildered face and laugh*
GW: *to Uncle* "How much ah?"
Uncle: "$3.60"
GW: "$1.80 for one can of drink?!"
Me: "HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!"
Uncle: "No, your friend ordered another drink. So all count together."
GW: "Orh. Okay."

FUCKING FUNNY CAN?

You cannot imagine Guo Wei's face lah! I laughed till i wanted to die please.

Then there was this guy who came to clear the table. Guowei was still eating his omelette and the guy just cleared his chilli sauce. So Guowei was looking all over the place for his chilli sauce when it was already in the bin. The guy who cleared the table noticed that Guowei was looking for something. He then presumed that Guowei was looking for his chilli sauce and he dipped his hand back into the bin and took out Guowei's chilli sauce for him.

You should have seen Guowei's face. It was a fucking classic.

Then when we were all done. We went over to the inner part of 85 and got entertained by Jj's friends. They were super good in magic tricks. This i swear by my name, Fiona Ang. This guy was shuffling Neh's card into the deck. The card had her name on it. He shuffle and shuffle then suddenly i look up and the fucking card was at his mouth!

Cheebye.

I pushed Neh and shouted "VANESSA!" Then Neh looked up and she chua sai to see her card at his mouth okay! If i had balls, they would have gone over to kowtow to him and beg him to be their master. I'm that serious. He's that good. So after alot of card tricks, Neh decided to be funny by telling us that she had a trick.

She did the separate-thumb-from-hand trick. Which is so primary school please. Then she took out note from my wallet and asked the guys.

Neh: "You believe i can tear these notes?"

Then she acts as if she's tearing the notes, with the sound and all. You should have seen Guowei. Jj, Johan and Dave's face. It was fucking hilarious okay! They stunned for awhile then recovered and started fooling around with the trick also. After awhile, it became quite annoying.

Ahgu then started telling Neh and i, about what happened to him previously.

All i can say is that the girl is mad. End of story.

Reminds me of the guy last year. *shudders*

We all left at 230am. My cab fare back home was a muthafucking $24.

Bloody cheebye.

$24 can feed like 4people in Thailand okay! I'm super annoyed about that fact. Bloody hell.

I found this online. Its fucking true. Like fuck you.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Tell me if you think this is so muthafucking true about me.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Clubbing and Bitching sessions with my MNGs.

Meeting up with my MNGs has never been this much fun.

Finally Neh came to meet up with us, after 28493757934002 years okay. Celest came to join us today too. Met up in town for coffee and gossip sessions. It was fun! Then Yang came to join us, apparently Xia made him wait for two hours or something. Super funny.

When Xia came, she was all pale and Yang still dun want to pull a chair for her. Like fuck him lah. Anyway, he did in the end. He pretended to be angry with her for awhile. It was pretty funny to watch them two at it.

We hung out at Coffeebean till 8. Then went Subway to eat, then it was clubbing at Devils. Got Celest in, because i asked her to walk with Xia and i took the lead. Supposed to scared Celest get screened, in the end, Neh and Sheila got screened. Hilarious.

We went to the Dance room and chionged to the bar to get drinks. The music was like fuck, FULL STOP. Neh and i drank like mad lah. We kept going back for more. I think i drank like 2 Burbon cokes, 1 Barcardi 151 coke, 2 Screwdrivers and 2 Coronas. All that in one hour.

I am the Queen!

Was supposed to boh tah boh lampa with Neh for 10glasses. But we left Devils at 11pm, because it was fucking boring. Besides, Neh and i both drank like $50 worth of drinks, for free. So i love Ladies Night.

Cabbed to Newton, where Celest, Sheila and i had $15 stingray and $6 Kangkong. Fucking shiok shit okay. Neh and Xia had sambal fried rice. The gossip session started again after we were all fed and watered. Smoked and talked about alot of things. It was great to catch up on one another's news.

We should have more MNG sessions. With honourary members of course. =)

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Forsaken

Sometimes i wonder if i'm sane or not.

I was grabbing Bedah and pulled her around because i saw acockroach. Its fucking gross and i nearly died hyperventilating.

Save me.

It reminds me of how he always fake grabs one just to see me freak out. Then again, thats in the past.

How about this guy who's 36 and wants to date me out?

Like no.

I'll prolly go out with him. To get his money. HAHA.

Then again, i aint that mean.

I'm really bored.

Someone entertain me please.

DISTURBED LYRICS

"Forsaken"

[Originally wrote and performed by KORN]

I'm over it
You see
I'm falling in the vast abyss
Clouded by memories of the past
At last, I see

I hear it fading
I can't speak it
Or else you will dig my grave
We fear them finding
Always whining
Take my hand now
Be alive

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because I'm not the only one
We walk amongst you
Feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone

I'm over it
Why can't we be together
Embrace it
Sleeping so long
Taking off the mask
At last, I see

My fear is fading
I can't speak it
Or else you will dig my grave
We fear them finding
Always whining
Take my hand now
Be alive

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because I'm not the only one
We walk amongst you
Feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone

You see I cannot be forsaken
Because I'm not the only one
We walk amongst you
Feeding, raping
Must we hide from everyone

Everyone
Everyone
Everyone

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Power packed weekend.

The past few days has been the bomb for me. Friday was spent with Louise and Bedah in town. Its been a long time since i hung out with Louise that way already. So obviously it was a blast. Three of us ended up at NYDC Heerens. Beer became water and we drank like one jug and we were all high like birds. I was pretty high because i was quite tired after my Accts tution and i didnt really sleep much the night before. Louise was feeling giddy because she decided to be a smoker for a day.

Beer + Cigarettes = Bad Louise

Anyway, i was checking this manager out. He looks like Jeremy, i swear to the heavens above that i was quite turned on by his stare. But Bedah and Louise were turned off by him and they both kept staring at this server wearing a miniskirt. They kept staring and staring at her ASS i tell you. Every single time she walked past our table, they checked out her ass. I was quite annoyed i tell you.

The bill came up to like 50plus.

Mad i say.

We paid then we went home. I was taking pictures of Louise so that i'd have an updated picture of her.





Then the three of us.



I took the same bus as Louise, so we went to queue for 804. The queue got longer and longer and there were small commotions happening at random times. So i turned to look.

There was this indian man. He was going around asking for a dollar, saying that he needed to get home. I was prepared to reject him but he didnt ask me, he asked Louise.

Man: "Eh, brother. Can you help me, give me a dollar."
Louise just stared at the man.
Me: "NO." *rolls eyes."

He then proceeds to ask the lady next to me for a dollar.

Man: "Excuse me, can you give me a dollar to take the MRT home?"
Lady: "Now what time already? Its 1230am, what MRT are you going to take?"
Man: "I'm going to take the MRT tmr. I'll take a bus down."
Lady: "No."

Like fuck off please. First off, he's able to walk and talk. He still has all his limbs still attached to him. Secondly, why the living fuck are you begging for money? Where is your pride?

Then he gave up on asking for a dollar and cursed Louise.

Man: "Your God will curse you for not helping someone in need."
Me: *waves hands* "OOOOOHHH, i'm so scared! Shivering in my Havanias already."
Louise just laughed.

How come he didnt curse any of the other people who didnt want to give him a dollar? Mad fuck.

Sat

Went Sentosa with Kimchoo! I swear she's a noob. I went to buy the entrance ticket for her. Then i gave it to her.

Kim: "Wheres yours?"
Me: "I using Islander."
Kim: "Huh?"
Me: "Membership card lah."
Kim: "How come i dun have!? I also want!"
Me: "Go sign up lor."

Long and short of the whole trip was that we tanned at the beach. Then we crashed Coasta Sands for their pool. Then it was town for me.





Ken came out already! Met up with Bedah in town first. As usual, everyone was late. So we both hung out at Starfucks for awhile. Then sat at some stone seat and both of us were falling asleep.

Sheila arrived and we went over to Far East to meet the guys. I was carrying my huge Roxy bag. Mitch got a shock when he saw it. He said the bag was bigger then me. And he twisted my wrist again.

Fucking hell.

It hurt like a bitch. He twisted it just because i covered his eyes. And after that when i was pinching him due to something he said, he choked me. Right, many thanks. NOT.

The guys left after Ken and Shaik came. So us girls and Gab waited for Xia before heading to Crazy for some beer! It was pints of Heineken all round. I drank till i was alil high and was starting to blabber alot of nonsense already. Sheila on the other hand, was all red in the face. Including her eyeballs. So we didnt let her drink anymore.

Spicy Cheese Nachos were the bomb.

Then we decided to go off.

Sheila ran to some pillar outside Attica and sat down. She was in a mini, so can you imagine how ugly it was for her to sit cross-legged. Then she decided that she wanted to vomit. She laid on the floor and threw up. She just didnt want to sit on the ledge i pulled her on.

Fuck.

Then she knelt on the floor and she really threw up. All over herself.

So Heineken, Cheese Nachos came out. Then i moved her to another side where she proceeds to lie on the floor again. I yanked her up then i carried her for like ten steps and i really wanted to die already. Then this caucasian came along and asked if i needed help carrying her. I was super tired, but i managed to heave Sheila onto his arms.Then he carried her over to the cab.

Gab got in first, then the caucasian practically threw Sheila in. Then off the cab went.

Xia and i went to Liang Court to wash our hands. The Ladies toilet was Out of Order, so we went to the guys one. Then we went to the bus stop to wait for Xia's sister to come get us.

I have to mention this. Its kinda cheesy, but i was quite disturbed by it. I think its prolly how annoyed i am about some other things, and its making me feel disturbed.

Anyway, we were sitting at the bus stop when suddenly this guy got off some transport and ran off. But before he ran off, he turned and glanced at my direction. So out of courtesy's sake, i smiled.

Before you can say whowantstobeamillionaire, he was back and standing in front of me. I got a shock please! I was quite taken aback by his sudden decision to run back and stand in front of me.

Then the conversation went like this.

Him: "I couldnt help noticing you."
Me: "Okay."
Him: "Are you pure Singaporean? From a Singaporean family?"
Me: "Uh, yes."
Him: "I've been in S'pore for three weeks and i've never met anyone as gorgeous as you."
Me: *stun* "Uh, thanks."
He did the kiss cheek thing. So i had to oblige. Then he held my hand.
Him: "Whats your name?"
Me: "Fiona."
Him: "My name is (insert random name.)"
I didnt get to hear his name see.
Him: "So are you clubbing now?"
Me: "No, i'm going home actually. We were at Crazy Elephant."
Him: "And where is that?"
Me: "Near Mos."
Him: "I see, i hope to see you around."
Me: "Okay."

Then Xia's sister came. I reached home at 430am. I was one tired bitch.

Sunday

I had to go for tution in Tamp. I dragged my tired and overused body out of bed to bathe and to Northpoint to meet Bedah. She had to pass me my hair mousse.

Cabbed to Tamp because i was really too tired to wait for the bus. Got to my tutor's at 3.30pm, when i was supposed to reach at 2.30om. How late i was please. When i got there, i saw Sabrina. Then my tutor explained that she was joining us for the rest of our sessions. And i was like annoyed already, because i dun want people to be disturbing my tution with their dancing and giggling. But she was quite reserved throughout the whole time i was there. Not counting the times where she was whining about something or other to my tutor.

At the end of it all, we had to do my favourite, Trading, Profit & Loss and Balance Sheet. Us old hands had to finish it in 15mins, but due to the fact that we havent done it in a long time, we were all fumbling. Sher finished it in like 18mins, Joe 19mins and me in 20mins. Lucky we were still fast enough to finish before the other two.

Then we got dismissed after alot of discussion about the next time we have classes. So i went to meet Jean! She lives next block to my tutor see. So i waited for her to dress up and we headed to town. Ernest was late as usual. We went to eat at Ria, some indonesian restaurant. The Ayam Penet there is power packed. The chilli there is also kan si lang power. I love it. Jean and i were like swearing at the chilli and eating it at the same time. Fucking hell.

I smsed Ernest and asked him to hurry up and get here. His sms reply was, "The bloody maids walk like their asses weigh 100kg lidat." I showed it to Jean and i laughed. Then the food came, and we all started digging in. Then Ernest flipped.

He pointed at this and he asked if it was tissue paper.



See that white piece of cabbage in the picture? Ernest thought it was FRIED TISSUE PAPER. He made me laugh till i couldnt breathe. Tissue paper, i swear. He then decided to compare it with a real piece of tissue, and they were both alot different. Not at all alike.

Then we went outside to smoke and off to Starfucks we went. Stayed there for quite a long while and we went mad with observing games. Ernest and Jean nearly drove me mad lah. Mine was pretty easy because i did it quite fast. And even Jean the bimbo can catch it, but it was all fun. Then they both decided to take a photo.




Ernest looks retarded.

Then they both took the North-west line with me and i went to join Bedah at Ginza. To help her drink her beer.

Tsk.

So i went down and lent a listening ear to Jenny, Bedah's colleague. I drank too fast or something, because in no time at all, i was all floaty and high. We sat at Chong Pang for while then we headed back in cabs.

I got home and i had the weirdest prediction that i was going to throw up.

So i pulled my dustbin closer to my bed. And sure enough, within the next five minutes i threw up everything i had in me. Shiokest shit on earth. Then i went to wash up, i could hear my own blood rushing through my veins.

I fell asleep.

My mind was a blank, as if i never had memories before. How weird.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Clarification.

Clarification.
I have to clarify afew matters before i blog anymore.


  1. I have never hindered him from going back to the group. Neither have i said or did anything to ensure that.
  2. I also never said, do or intended to anybody whatsoever, that i was unhappy with him being with Kel. I was just sad and shocked that it happened.
  3. I am happy that he has Kel, the only thing i was unhappy about other matters and thats between the both of us.
  4. Fuck you if you ever thought i was trying to break them up. Because i have never, not, will never do that to somebody.
  5. My recent nicks have got nothing to do with him. Only for the SIM one. If you never see, thats your problem.
  6. The entries that concern him are none of your business. So read and shut up.
  7. I have never ever have the intention of making it seem as though my MNGs or group is unhappy with their r/s.
  8. My MNGs, Bedah and Jean are not included in any of the above.


I'm tired, he's tired. Its one heck of a friendship. I really want to move on. I've cried more then enough. It shall end here.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Last Prelim paper.

[edit]
YAY!

Today's the last of Prelims 2006! I'ma happy girl!

Free at last! But tmr got school, what a damper.

Anyway, Accts was suprisingly do-able. I finished the paper in 22mins and i was staring aimlessly around the hall. I was quite bored. Then again, accts 1 is easy! No 40k difference or anything like that. So i think i'm pretty safe.

Khalid came by my table. He stopped to lean on my table with a pose. I stunned for like three seconds then i went, "WHAT?"

Khalid: "You never come yesterday?"
Me: "No, overslept."
Khalid: "You never come for English also right?"
Me: "You are mad. I was present for both papers okay."
Khalid: "So what papers you missed?"
Me: "Maths."
Khalid: "Are you purposely absenting yourself for papers?"
Me: "Like no. Are you mad. For what?"
Khalid: "Dun do this for Os ah."
Me: "Yah lah."

Then he proceeds over to Solomon's table.

Solo: "`Cher! Why you hang your phone there sia?"
Khalid put his phone in a belt holder see.
Khalid: "Why? Cannot ah?"
Solo: "Sial lah! Kill sperms sial!"
Me: -snorts with laughter-

Cheebye.

Of all things he says, he had to say that. Fucking funny can! I laughed and laughed.

Then Khalid went over to Shams to chat.

Apparently he was asking Shams if the English 2 was difficult. It wasnt difficult. It was fucking difficult, i say. Dun know why want to make our lives so difficult for what. Stupid paper.

So Kumari collected our papers and everyone started asking CL for answers to various questions. I was mildly listening to their conversation. I didnt join in because i dun see the point in comparing answers. So what if you're wrong? Or right? It boils down to the marks that you'll be getting what. Even if you compare so much, also cannot change your answers. So discuss for fuck.

We were all detained by Yoonus. All because he took his own sweet time to call out individual Express people to do some survey. None of the Sec5s were asked to do any. He could have just dismissed us first and then call out names. In the end, we wasted like 15mins listening to him drone on and on about whoever from what class, go where etc.

Waste of time really.

Lunched with Sher, MJ and Xinni.

We were all eating and talking about random stuff. Then when we were all done with eating, we talked somemore. Okay, so MJ is afraid of cats.

A cat approached our table and Xinni was nudging MJ to tell her that there was a cat near her. MJ started freaking out and telling Xinni off, asking her not to fool around. Then MJ turned around and the cat stopped in it tracks to stare back at her. They made eye contact and MJ started yanking on Xinni's hand, pleading with her to chase the cat away.

Sher was also afraid, but she didnt have such a big reaction.

MJ pleads got louder and louder as the cat approached her chair. She closed her eyes and continued yanking on Xinni's hand, pleading with her to chase the cat away. The cat then decided to sit right under MJ's chair for a 30second break. MJ was close to freaking out. She had her legs up on the chair already. I could actually see tears in her eyes when she opened them to check the cat's location.

When she found out that the cat was under her chair, she really freaked and started half-crying and wailing. I was laughing my guts out. If i had balls, they would have jumped on the table and laughed with me. Sher, Xinni and i laughed non-stop at her. The three of us made feeble attempts to chase the cat away, because we were so weak with laughter. Finally the cat moved away and MJ was still wailing away, clinging onto Xinni's arm for dear life. She opened her eyes and asked me where the cat was. I could only laugh and point.

The cat was already pretty far away. MJ calmed down and started wiping away her tears while the rest of us continued laughing at her.

It was fucking hilarious i tell you.

I nearly laughed my lunch out again. It was that hilarious. Her reaction was classic.

After that, we parted ways and went home.

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I met up with Kimchoo around three in the afternoon. She was bored. We ended up talking about my problems. I guess she hasnt seen me like that in a long time. She's right, i shouldnt do this to myself. All along, i innocently thought i could have you dote on me for always. But life isnt a bed of roses isnt it? She opened my boxed vision to the matter a whole lot more. She can percieve what we both are thinking, she's good in that. The things she said made me tear again, just when i thought i was over crying already.

She said that theres someone out there who's waiting for me. It may be someone that i've rejected before.

And i shudder to think about that. Because of that nerd.

She said that i've always been strong. And how i hate being that. Its this perception that people have about me. That i can move on faster then you can say,

iatefiveearthquakesinthreehoursandbarfeditallbackout. (Try this)

It really isnt true. No matter how much i look like i'm okay and everything, its just a facade.

Try being me for a day. You'll understand then. Kim also said she felt anger in me. And i'm having spasms now while typing this. I seriously dun know what to feel anymore. As i said, i just wanted someone to dote on me. That's all i wanted, nothing more. But i cannot blame you can i? You need to devote your time and affections to another now. I'm your meimei, i have to understand. I cant not understand.

Theres so many things i need to consider. So many things i need to come to terms with. It feels as if i'll never bounce back up again. Theres a huge weight attached to me, holding me down. Yes, you still hold your promises to me. But is there a need anymore? If one day she leaves you, will you come back and say you're sorry all over again? You know i dun want that. I want you to be happy, even if its at my expense.

You're prolly gonna say that nobody's at fault and everything. But i'm going to say this for the last time, i feel that its my fault. I'm not trying to make you or her feel gulity.

I dun wanna do this anymore, i dun want to be the reason why. Everytime i pick up your call, i die a little more inside. I dun want to be, my murderer.

I really dun want to go through this any longer. Everytime i look into a mirror i get a shock, i'm scared of this side of me. I jump in fright because my double eyelid's become a single. My face is one blotch and i look like a clown, which is beside the point and extremely not funny.

I cannot go through this any longer. Its still gonna be like that isnt it? Our six months of friendship gone just like that. I was there for you when you were down. I was there when you needed someone to talk to. I'm your sister and you dropped me like a hot brick after you got attached.

I cannot continue blogging. Theres too much pain.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

tution mates.

I had Accts tution on Sunday. Obviously i went, because there was a test. Mom fetched me to Tamp. I swear this is the last time i'm getting her to fetch me. My parents have no patience at all. Dad was being a bitch as usual with his rantings about me not making it to anywhere and whatever. I seriously stopped bothering five years ago. Such comments isnt gonna take me anywhere anyway.

Best of all, he even said that he's going to chase me out of the house. I smiled a small smile and in my heart i was gloating. I am moving out anyway. What makes him think i'm staying in his house after this year? Immature thinking of his, never changed since i was nine.

Back to my Accts tution. I walked into my tutor's house and immadiately i hesitated a little. The dining table was extended and there were an extra two girls at the table. Then my tutor introduced them, they were from the Changkat Changi group. I had to sit like at the head of the table.

So the seating went like this.

I was furiously annoyed the whole time i was doing my test. See, the thing about Accts is that you need to think before you do anything. I didnt study, so i needed to think more. The two sitting closest to me were the worst people you can sit with in a test. I cannot take it. My patience was really to the limit already. But still, i chose to keep quiet. If i let go of my temper, i think my chair will fly at them.

They were fucking annoying. Giggling and giggling at i-dun-know-what. Then they kept flipping through the test paper over and over. Changing questions when they hit a rut.

I was FUCKING ANNOYED.

I came late for tution and can you believe i finished one question even before they started anything? I know that for sure because i looked over at their paper when i finished my first question. My annoyance only ended when they left my tutor's house. Sabrina had to go for IMF thing. Why would IMF employ people like her, i dun know why either. I think maybe they were blind or that they were desperate for people.

Like whatever lah. I'm quite annoyed just thinking about it.

I need to tell you my answer in another twenty minutes. I dun know what to say, i havent even come to my decision yet.

I told Bedah i had a late paper. She asked me leg paper?

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Nights out.


Friday,

Bedah and i met up for a late late dinner. I had Geography paper that morning and i didnt sleep the night before. I was one tired bitch. Got to school early and tried to study somemore. My mind was just full of Trance, but it sure did help me remember facts.

It was 715am by the time i got my butt to the hall. I was surprised to see Shawwai there already. Best of all, he was studying. He was STUDYING i tell you. So i sat down at some random seat and continued studying.

The teachers only came in at like 730. So i had like an extra 15mins to do some memorising. Then i realised that everyone was all seated and ready to begin the exam and i was the only one who still had my bag with me.

WTH.

So i hurried to the back of the hall to put my bag.

Russel: "Eh, metre change to feet is what?"
Me: "How i know. I like never study map lah!"
Russel: "Then how?"
Me: "EY Shengli! Feet to metre is what?"
Shengli: "How i know."
Me: "Walau eh."

Both Russel and i walked back to the front.

Me: "SHER! Whats feet in metres!"
Sher: "I dun know. Got feet meh?"
Me: "Die already lah."

So everyone starts panicking about feet equals to how many metres and whatnot. It spread to the Express people and they all got panicky.

Me: "EY, Shreeen! Got feet leh!"
Shreen: "What feet?"
Me: "My feet. Of course the map one lah."
Shreen: "Oh, that feet."

Shreeen starts panicking and turns around to ask the person behind her if she knew the conversion.

Me: "Shreen! Its 1.3048."
Shreen: "Okay, thanks."
Russel: "No lor! Its 2.6."
Me: "Bullshit. Its 5.2."

We made the Express people all mixed up with our conversation. They were even more put off by us. So that means we'll do better. =)

We're all evil.

After the paper, we all went home.

I was fucking tired, i swear.

Slept all the way till 6pm. Then Dad woke me up. Apparently i was sleeping like a log and i didnt wake up to go for tution at 2pm. Mom called to yell at me and after that i went back to sleep. I was too tired to care. Bedah called at 9pm and asked me to meet up. So i left the house to meet her at 925 for some stingray.

I finished the whole portion myself. I simply cannot believe what a pig i am. Sleep like mad, then eat like mad also.

Then we headed to Mac to smoke and slack. The moment i sat down, i yanked up my shirt to cover my nose.

I smell shit.

Literally.

I am fucking serious.

I turned to the other side and i saw this old lady sitting in the table next to me. I couldnt for the life of me fathom where the smell came from. I was quite annoyed. Bedah was giving me this weird look on her face already and i really couldnt stand the smell.

Then the people around us started to get up and move away from the smoking area. The smell was horrendous, i swear.

So after that, we met Hidayah. She told us the entire story of how the old lady shat on herself and whatnot.

Then it was home for me.

Sat,

Baoyi asked to go Cocco Latte. I wasnt very interested at first, because i r cheapskate. I didnt want to pay to go into a club.

FOR WHAT PLEASE.

But in the end, Baoyi, Sheila, Celest and i cabbed over from town. Once we got in, i wanted to get out. The place was freaking small! I didnt like it at all. Till somebody told me that there was a second floor. We ordered 1 for 1 Chivas Coke. Its the fastest way to get high. Plus one tequila shot each.

All of us boh tah boh lampa.

Then again, we dun have also. So it doesnt really matter if we tah or not.

Danced like mad. Poledanced with Baoyi and Celest. I wasnt even in the mood yet, even after all the Chivas Coke and tequila shot. Then i started tah-ing shots for Baoyi. Power packed shots please. The first one i drank was like fire in my throat. I think theres a hole in my throat now, like how theres a hole in the ozone layer.

I started prancing around barefooted. Yes, i know i'm like mad high. I laid on the sofa and i wanted to die. I was so high. Then Baoyi came over and slut-danced on my thigh and she was going all over touchy touchy.

CHEEBYE.

I cannot take it. (I'm not having lesbian tendancies.)

So i went off to dance with her. Her sole purpose of doing that slut dance to me was so she could get me to dance. I was half mad already. Then suddenly she disappeared and i went to dance with Sheila and Celest. Scandelous never did sound so nice.

A hand yanked on my arm, pulled me backwards towards the bar.

I got a shock please. I thought which mad freak got hold of me. Apparently it was Baoyi, she wanted me to help her tah three shots that the bartender gave her. I looked at the shots, and they were all of different colours. I scared lah! But i still took two shots.

Two shots of different alcohols went into my mouth. It burned all the way from my mouth to stomach. My throat confirm got hole now. After that i was half gone. Plus many more free shots from the bartender, i was really three quarters gone.


I was prolly half gone already.





Make that three quarters gone.

I seem to rmb frenching Baoyi.

But i aint sure if it was real. Maybe i was dreaming. What a weird dream.

Then Mirame came on.

I kan chiong and i half ran to the dancefloor. Sheila saw my reaction and she laughed like mad.

Funny meh?

I pranced around without my birks. Pranced and pranced. As if i had all the energy in the world, but it felt as if my legs were going to give way. I wanted to drop dead and sleep. I was so tired.

I seem to vaguely rmb calling Ken or somebody. But it cannot be Ken because he's in camp now. Who can it be?

Now, i'm 18 and i'm senile.

Thats not good.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Updated.

Author's Note in my Profile is updated!

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Thursday, September 14, 2006

Beer and the new me.

Beer ytd with Lena and Ray! We drank so much beer please. We just kept ordering and ordering like no tomorrow. Drank till i was gone. I felt like i was on a cloud.

Okay, so Lena's boyfriend broke up with her. I feel kinda sad for her, because she gave up everything to be with him. So she came down to meet me in the afternoon and we hung out. Then she decided to meet up with him. But i told her i really didnt see the point. So she gave up on the idea.

Went over to her house and checked out this handsome boy on her Msn. Then i realised that this handsome boy viewed my profile in Friendster. I was surprised that he was her friend. Lena told me that we were going down to 925 to meet him for some beer. I had a five minute panic attack and i started putting on make-up.

WHAT? CANNOT MEH?

Meet handsome boy so must put make-up what. If not like ghost like that and meet him meh? Bullshit please.

So it was beer the whole night. Drank like no tomorrow really. I was downing beer like water. It feels like we had 20bottles of beer.

I feel like shit now.

I seriously do.

I'm like annoyed. Only because i dun know where to move on to.

I dun know what to seek in life anymore. Maybe i depended on you too much, which is why i'm lost when you left. I shouldnt depend on you anymore. I should start living my own life again. But the thing is that i dun know how to re-live the six mths that i spent being close to you. Its difficult. But i just have to. I want that old Fiona back. The one whom is worshipped by people for her self-confidence, her character and most importantly, for her being able to stand up again after a defeat.

The current Fiona just gets defeated and leaves it at that. She lets alot of things get her down. She bows to tears and lets go easily.

I dun like the current Fiona. I've had enough of the current Fiona. She's too weak. From today on, let there be a new Fiona. One who doesnt take no for an answer, one who defeats people and one who makes people bow to her.

No more Nice Fiona.

You made me the person i am today.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Start of Prelims.

I'm seriously attracted to Trance. I just cannot stop listening to Trance.

I'm gonna start ranting about my Prelims. So if you cannot understand what i'm talking about, move on.

Ytd was Day One of Prelims. Obviously i didnt study. I went to school with my leg bandaged. I walked limped to school and everyone stared at me. I guess its because i had red toenails. So everyone in the parade square was studying.

Me?

I was listening to Trance and drinking Green Tea.

So everyone was going on about complex maths and science formulas plus going on and on about what they think is gonna come out for Social Studies. I dun really give a fuck. So we all got to the hall and it was a mess. There was no order at all. My class is damn smart. Everyone just sat down at the last two rows, because we were last class. Since i was the first in index, i had to sit all the way at the front.

I hate sitting at the front.

I'm serious. If you have the same surname as me, you should know how i feel.

But my whole class got shifted and we joined up with 5NA. We took Social Studies first. Yes, i didnt study. But on the whole, i felt that i did alright. I mean who cannot do Merger and Separation? Then we had a 20min break and everyone ran to the canteen to grab a bite.

Went back into the hall again for Science. I bombed random answers into the OTAS. Multiple choice what. Dun know then bomb lah.

Then it was Maths 1. I really cannot make it please. Half the time i was staring into space. It was a two hour paper, but i finished it in like 30mins. I had alot of free time to spare. So i went grinning around to random people. Obviously nobody took any notice of me. So i was one sad sad person.

Left school at 1330. Went home and then changed to go meet KC. The woman needed help in English. Plus she was teaching Gerald Maths. So i went down to NP to meet up with her and Gerald. But i ended up talking to Kay and Zura. Then Marie came down to join me for dinner.

I marked Kc's compo and i gave her a pass grade.

We both sent Kc over to the MRT station then we went to eat. Marie met her Fanclub at Foodcourt. All the little kids please. Marie didnt want anything, so only i ate. We left after awhile for the open air because i wanted to smoke. Sat outside Northpoint and smoked like mad. I was smoking and ranting to her at the same time. So she had to listen to my annoyance.

Went back up to Popular to buy some study books. I'ma good girl see.

Then went home.

Slept all the way till 4am, where i woke up with a jump. It felt as if someone ran their cold icy fingers down my back. Sat up in bed and i started to stare into space. I couldnt go back to sleep, so i started reading Harry Potter till it was time to bathe and go to school.

Mom was surprised to see me all ready to go to school by 640am. Usually i'm still in bed at that time. Wrapped my leg and left for school.

English was the bomb today.

I wrote about Despair. And now that i think about it. I bwanged my English for the first time. So i'm kinda mood-out now.

Then came Chem, as usual, i did my paper just any old how and gave it in. After that it was Accounts. It was a fucking killer paper i tell you. My Balance Sheet had a difference of 40k.

40,000 i tell you. Like fuck the paper!

Cheebye.

I only completed three out of the five questions i was supposed to do. I gave up on the fucking paper after i found out i had a difference of 40k.

We got dismissed and all of us went down to check what time we were supposed to report for practical tmr. Then it was home for me. Fucking tired.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Vena made me do it.

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true and then add one true thing about you.

I eat alot.( Sometimes, when i have nothing better to do.)
I could sing properly.
I don't like to spend my own money. (Its good to spend other people's money too. Helps them.)
I wear contacts. (Since i was 14)

I can run for a long long time.
I cannot start conversations.
I miss somebody, right now. (Yes, Neh. Meet me soon)
I am studying at Taylors college. (Now, where the flying fuck is this place?)
I have handbags. (too many for my own good.)
I would go for plastic surgery if its free, scar free, and if God allows. (Yes please.)
I would wear braces for the rest of my life, but ones which i can take out as and when i like. (HELL YEAH.)
I have loads of fats. (If you count them in ounces.)
I've been on an aeroplane. (Try six in one day. China)
I have a list of friends who adores me. (Big social circle.)
I have tried biscuits with chilli. (Nice what.)

I think most caucasians with blue/green eyes are hot. (Like no. Try purple.)
I can shout and poke people, openly. (I didnt know you had to hide and poke people.)
I tried to jump and dry my hair. (Once, when i was bored.)
I hate people who bite their nails. (I bite mine when i find them annoying.)

To be able to drink coffee and not spit it out. (I drank coffee since i was five.)
I have friends. (So many please.)
I used to think tattoos and lip rings are cool. (They still are. I have six and two.)

Fly around the world with a visa card.
I read trashy chinese romance novels.
I mentally punch people i hate. (I punch literally too.)
Drink and drive.
I have an unhealthy obsession with cartoons.
I forgot what i did yesterday. (I'm senile. Like my MNGs say.)
I have extremely loaded god-parents.
Was a ballerina. (N.E.V.E.R.)
I am hungry. (Just had dinner.)
I am a rich pretty princess of a country. (In my dreams)
I have a crush on the same person, twice.
I think butches have better fashion sense than most guys.
I am a well-known vet.
I love my telly and the air con.
I would rather eat than shop.
Be the stalker of my lover.
I am pretty 'fine' with techno. (techno's a thing of the past. Try trance.)
I am in need of money.
(Donate? Pretty Please?)
Board the plane to Perth and start my career there!
I enjoy watching soap operas.
I am a christian.
Someone to profess his undying love for me at the parade square with a bouquet of flowers in his hands. ( Like that's ever gonna happen.)
Ghost whisperer's plot is super heart wrenching.
I used veet before.
Have someone to holla at every minute.
Kissed someone of the same sex. (Desire, i was high.)
Addicted to M&S fruity-beauty berry blue.
Control the growth (speed) of my hair.
Had a crush on someone older than me by 10 years. (8 years to be exact.)
I am a copy machine.
In heaven with my whole entire family.
I have a really loud voice. (Think you can hear me five miles away.)
I love my dog!
Have my own mall.
Party-pooper.
I try to be a motivator, gazillion unsuccessful attempts.
Own a horse/ posh.
Cannot live without water.
Think watching cartoons is the best way to kill time.

I can eat all day without gaining weight.
I am only 164cm, short. (165cm to be exact.)
Believed that tooth-fairies exist. (I used to okay!? You dun want to kow abt the easter bunny.)
Ability to hibernate during spring, in the morning and noon.

Prefer original to crispy chicken.
I lose interest in people very quickly and would try to ignore them.
Own my very own N73.
Have something against trainee teachers. (They are waiting to be bullied anyway.)
A very bo-chap person. (Tell me about it.)
I think this has GOT to be the wierd-est questionnare EVER. (YES please.)

I can listen to Trance all day.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Neglection.

Currently theres 285MB worth of Trance in my phone. I get high whenever i'm listening to music. =)

It was Zouk on Friday! Nelson gave us invites so we got in for free. Once in, we gave our bags to the baggage counter and went outside again. Nelson had this huge yellow Crumpler sticker. Why? Because he works for Crumpler, thats why. He even had the Crumpler chain. Talk about being a one heart follower. We headed outside to smoke and whatnot. I cannot believe that Zouk doesnt allow you to smoke while lining up. How gay can they get. Nelson and Jonathan left in a cab to pick up Valentina. Her name is totally cool please.

Like, "Hi, i'm Valentina."

But no way am i naming my daughter that. What if she has to go through alot of ridicule half her life? I would rather not ruin her childhood.

So Xia and i headed to some random coffeeshop and sat down for green tea. Halfway while i was still sipping my green tea, she shieked and jumped to another seat. All because she thought she felt a lizard on the back of her seat. She's mad i tell you. We left after finishing our drinks. Went back into Zouk and to the Rnb arena. Okay, i have no idea what Zouk named their rooms and i dun really care. Both of us just stood there, as if we were pillars. We didnt really like the RnB and besides, we were there for house music. But still, Xia and i danced till we were all sweaty.

I was quite put off by the songs being played. All because the tunes were seriously undanceable.

Then Scandelous came on. I went mad with Xia. Even when they played Tokyo Drift, i was practically chanting the lyrics all the way. I'm that familiar with the lyrics.

We left the RnB arena after awhile to go for some house. The house was good, but it didnt really appeal to me. So i was kinda bored. Plus some people were going all happy just because three guys went to get her number. Big flying fuck i say. So what really? Not as if it was ten or something. All that hullabaloo for nothing really.

Left Zouk at 230am.

Nelson accompanied us out to the carpark to look for Yang. Xia was practically running to Yang already. Nelson made fun of her by doing a slow motion of her running. I laughed. Then we left to Thompson for some prata. After that, Yang fetched me home. I think he can be a cab driver when he finishes poly.

I got home at 430am and i didnt get any sleep. I left the house at 8am because i had to meet Kc at AMK. 74-ed to Hougang. Met the SVC people at the NEL then we went off to the interchange and 51-ed to Hougang Cc. Spent like two hours there and left at 1230 because i had an appointment with Joseph.

I rushed down to Dhoby Ghaut from Hougang. And i walked into the studio to realise that Bedah wasnt there yet. Imagine how annoyed i was? So i called Jason to ask for her and apparently they were still on the way. So i went inside first.

Smoked while i looked through some random tattoo magazines. Then Jo came in a drew a tribal for me on my feet. It looked like this.


This is just the drawing. Now you see the real thing.

And you see this.

Not bad right?

I paid like $120 for it. Leslie did my tribal for me. I was afraid that he wasnt qualified to do it. But Jo assured me that Leslie's more patient in doing tribal then he was. So i went ahead and got it done.

The process was a bitch.

I cried mother, father and basically every single swear word i ever knew. It hurt that much. I swear i never want to go through anything like that ever again. Then again, i have to go for a touch up. So its still too early to say anything. But it sure hurt like a fucking cb.

Then Bedah got her wings touched up and we left the studio.

Wne tover to Wisma and got back Bedah's PDS from Jason. Then smoked somemore and we left for home. I was one tired bitch because i havent got any sleep for the past 48hours.

And i only fell asleep at 9am because of someone's neglection. Thanks.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Happy!

I bought Jean this humungus lollipop the other time. She had a hard time eating the thing. In fact, she even tried to shove the whole thing into her mouth.



Sometimes i wonder why i have such bimbotic friends.

Yes, Adam sent me a whole muthafucking lot of Trance and Hard Energy songs! I'm one happy girl! Now Xia's also sending me alot of songs. Currently, i have 240MB worth of songs in my phone. =)

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Funny memories.

Check out Ernest's blog.

The only thing i got to say is that, if my guy checks out a girl in front of me. He can dun need to have sex anymore. =) And i'll prolly chop off his hands too. =))

For those who born in the 70s and 80s.

1. You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles, My Little Pony and Smurfs too.

2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too.

3. You know what SBC stands for.

4. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in class.

5. You watch a very popular Malay dubbed Japanese drama on RTM1 about schoolgirls who possess powerful skills in volleyball called Meoro Attack.

6. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.

7. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP! when pressed. There are colourful tickets forTIBS buses.The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket.

8. Envelopes given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.

9. You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

10. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.

11. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

12. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.

13. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

14. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka (20 cents per pack), and Ding Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.

15. You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.

16. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers.

17. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.

18. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.

19. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word.

20. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

21. CDIS were your bestfriend.

22. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.

23. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.

24. Boys loved to play soccer with small plastic balls in the basketball court.

25. Teng-teng, five stones, chapteh, hentam bola and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too. (sad to say i never played such games when i was little.)

26. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fish.

27. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Wally & Mr. Yakki. What abt Miss Lala??? And Zaki and Tini in Malay Textbooks?

28. We carry out experiments of our own to get ourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.

29. Every Children's day and National day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with 'Happy National Day 1994'.

30. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother. 31. We wear BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes.

32. Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.

33. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.

34. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

35. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.

36. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.

37. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.

38. You see Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.

39. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.

40. Boys like to catch fighting spiders.

41. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.

42. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch.Friend like you, hard to forget".

43. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

44. There were at least 40 people in one class.

45. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.


50. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

Smiling.

I spent two days without sleep and food. I think i worried Bedah for awhile. But last night i fell asleep with a smile. That smile is so long overdue. Overdue for six months in fact. I was enlightened yesterday, because of something Bedah told someone. Apparently she didnt tell me, if not i would have realised it earlier. So at 4am this morning, somebody and i had a "arguement" on the phone. I was boiling mad. But strangely enough, i was still smiling away. We argued and argued and those famous lines came up, "I really dunno how". I anticipated those lines because its what you always say. But at the end of it all, you still thanked me for my friendship and it was the second time i was thanked for my friendship today.

It made all the difference in the world.

Most importantly, i was enlightened yesterday and i realised that what i had for you was pretty much what a sister gives to a brother.=)

Silly silly fiona. You do the silliest things sometimes.

But still, you're my brother. And you have my word that nobody will touch her. One, being that she was, or rather still is my friend. Two, being that nobody touches what belongs to Fiona. That includes her friends. So go ahead, have fun. =)

And so, you owe me a treat. YAY! I GET A TREAT!

What a joke.

This is a composition i wrote for my Mid Year Examinations 2006.

Laughter

Laughter as they say, is the cure for all illnesses. I don't think that it has been proven, but nevertheless i'm inclined to believe in it. Laughter can never be bought or sold. Unless you're living in a fairytale where a goblin gives you a pot of gold in payment for your laughter. The curious truth however is, why do we laugh?

Laughter is enticed out of oneself by hearing or seeing something funny. The violent deep rumbles of laughter could be felt from the depth of the stomach all the way to the mouth. For example, when someone tells you a joke and you find that its funny, you'll start to laugh. Laughter comes in lots of different forms. The silent laughter being that you look as if you're laughing but no sound can be heard from your open mouth. The giggly kind of laughter, which is often heard from girls, would be short bursts of air that leave you breathless. The best of all is the infectious laughter, the one that makes laughter so much fun. It is where your laughter entices or makes others laugh together with you.

The beauty of laughter, i feel, is often found with friends or complete strangers. A group of friends may have absolutely nothing to talk about, but once a joke is told, laughter rings in their ears. The warm fuzzy feeling of bonding could then be felt as we see one another laughing about the same thing at the same time. Complete strangers may know nothing about each other, can laugh at a joke and eventually become friends. It it a powerful tool to use whenever in need.

I believe that laughter is truly a gift from God. Its only he that can bring us such a wonderful gift. To think that even the blind, the deaf and mute knows laughter. The special gift was not restricted to any race or religion. But given to all to share their happiness and joy.

But laughter is not all perfect. It is more of how we choose to use it. The times that we used laughter to laugh at someone who has fallen down or at another for getting poor results. Such laughter is not needed. We mix our emotions with laughter to get different effects. The sacarstic laughter that we often hear from bullies and the know-it-alls in schools. This laughter reminds us of failure and disappointment. The mean laughter, that is more then often heard from the villians in cartoons and television shows makes you think of bad people and shudder.

Since laughter is the cure for all illnesses. Then should all hospitals start by taking in clowns as nurses? Or comedians as doctors? The reality of that fact smacks you right back in your face. Cancer patients are not going to be rid of cancer just because someone made them laugh. People with minior ailments like cough or flu will not get well just because they laughed. But just how should we embrace this saying? To make sure that it adheres with our daily lives? The solemn truth is therefore understood, laughter is not the cure for all illnesses, but laughter cures the suffering caused by illnesses. Laughter is placed within us to remind us of joy and happiness. It serves its purpose to make us forget our aches and pains and move on with life, clinging desperately to the memories and love that laughter brought us.

So that was it.

How did you find it? Now, you get to guess my grade! So upon 30, submit your guess in my comment box. The one who guesses the right answer wins a prize!

So i went out with Bedah and Jean today. We were supposed to go get Bedah's touch up, but when we got to the studio, it was closed. It was closed i tell you! So i got Jo on the line and apparently he forgot about our appointment. Yes, so we went all the way to Paradiz for nothing. We decided to eat at Meat You There. After two days of not eating anything, i finally ate something. Bedah was happy that i was eating again. Silly woman, as if i'll give up food for a guy. Then i was talking to Jean, and she enlightened me about alot of things in the problem. Now i see things more clearly. But too bad, i dun have a heart to execute it.

So after dinner, we cabbed to Bugis where i got even angrier. I'm not gonna elaborate here. But all you people have to know that i, Fiona, lowered my pride to bother to sms nobody and that nobody didnt reply. Best off all, the reason given was that nobody doesnt know how to reply my sms. So be it then. I put down my shield to tell you that i'm trying to move on even after what i found out. Yes, nobody went to tell my boys not to tell me about it. So when were you gonna tell me? After my fucking Os? Or wait, why not just tell me after i DIED? Makes everything so much easier by saying it at my grave 50 years later isnt it? MAN, i must have been one dumb shit for six months. Never mind, better dumb now then dumb later.

So God must think i'm one silly girl now, doesnt he? Because i prayed so many times to him because of what i went through. I guess its not for nothing thou, because i learnt a fucking lesson in how to deal with stupidity. No more being nice, and i mean it.

Enjoy yourselves. Remember that i never want to hear you say "I'm sorry" because its too late for that.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

For the both of you.

I know the both of you read my blog.
Happy getting together.
Because i dun know what else to say.
Both of your are my personal friends.
I refuse to be a cb.
Both of you are gems for one another.
So in a way, i'm glad that you two are together.

So enjoy each other's company.

I dun need you to feel gulity, K.
Like i said, you dun have to be.
Because he wasnt mine to begin with.

He's yours now.

I prayed a prayer two months ago.
I asked God to send you someone that will love you as much as you love her.
God replied me today.
Yes, i feel the pain.
But it'll all go away.
Like you said, let time heal everything.
For the last time,
Lovelove M.