crap.

argh!!
i wasn't called for the stupid yv thing.
their loss i guess.
bud i went for the stupid thing.
so much for calling me.
hah.
i think i sorta aced it lar.
confident me.

on the way to the interview place.
sharon me and kc was talking abt stuff.
then i was telling them abt the tym
where i wanted to call my mentee kanages and BOTH kanas turned ard.
well.
there are two of them.
one kanageswary the girl.
and kanageswaren the boy.
then sharon came up with this nonsense of saying kana-sai.
wtf lar.
u see arh.
like u call kana rite?
then u go like this
' kana!'
the kanas turn around.
-u turn away and go-
'sai!'
so piece it together and u get kana-sai.
i bloody burst out laughing at the road side can?
sharon is full of crap.
i swear.
then becox we wanted to chbot the stupid launch mtg.
we went to watch madagascar.
damn farnie lar.
i laugh and laughed.
and i spilled half the popcorn on the floor.
wth.
lucky its salty.
if not the roachies will come.
speaking of roachies.
vena took this super ugly foto of me in mac crying cox i saw a huge roach.
i cant upload it cox theres something gay with it.
hah.
*whee.

five years ago

i guess i shdn had held hopes for u.
it happened five years ago.
i guess the lil twinge of feelings were always there for u.
bud now.
u made it go again.
the torch i held for u has finally gone out.
i'm sorry.
sorry for not being someone that u like.
i guess i have no fate in guys.
hello lesbians.
here i come.
I'M KIDDING. =))
whee*

CS

i'm in the comp lab in sch now.
everywhere ard me are guys playing CS.
and its really everywhere lar.
my mummie is coming back today.
she bought a Chanel bag and adidas jacket for me.
whee*
i'ma happy gurl. =))

bus drivers these days.

tution never seem to drag for soo long before.
went for dinner then went home.
we were in the queue for 969.
then it came so we went up.
both of us had our mp3s blasting in our ears.
both of us din have our ez-links with us.
so we had to pay by coins.
as i was walking in.
i saw like somebody waving at me.
so i stopped.
the bus driver was trying to tell me something.
so i took off my earpiece.
the convo went like this.

bus driver: 'how much you pay?'
me: '55cents lar!'
bus driver: 'then your friend how old?'
me: ' she student lar.'
bus driver: 'then how much she pay?'
me: '55cents lar!'
bus driver: 'where you going?'
me: 'Yishun.'
bus driver: 'pay 1.60.'
me: 'why should i pay 1.60?'
bus driver: 'you adult what.'
me: 'i'm not an adult what.' -gives an attitude.
bus driver: 'you look so old of course adult lar.'
me: 'i'ma student lar.'
bus driver: 'show me your ID.'
me: 'i lost it.'
bus driver: 'then show me your identity.'
me: ' i just said that i dun have it!'
bus driver: 'you must show me your identity if not got pourblem.'
me: 'if i bloody had it i wud have shown the stupid thing to you!!'
bus driver: 'show me your IC.'
me: ' i SAID I DUN HAVE IT WITH ME. WHATS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?'
bus driver: 'you must show me your identification.'
me: 'wtf. i tell u i dun have any identification with me rite??'
bus driver: -shuts up-
me: -stalks off- 'bitch!' -loudly-
me tell friend: ' i really dun know what's his problem. tell him that i got no ID he still insist on it.'
friend: -shrugs-

i dun get wtf is his problem.
its not as if i'm lying.
and since when does looking older means that we need to pay more for bus fares??
so now looking older is a crime??
geez.
what's his deal.
bus drivers these days.
how gaay can they get??

House Olympics 2

argh.
today's olympics started off okae.
the onli thing that was holding the crowd back was the cards.
the animal stapler thing was so funn!!!!
kinda cute.
but super hard to staple.
then had to go over to L2 to settle some probs.
on the way there.
i got assigned to help with security again!
argh.
me, jena and shereen nearly died by upper sec recess.
so freaking hungry!!
and like my gastric juices were screaming to get out.
i got sooo pissed that i went to look for nigel.
cox i wanted him to take over.
and i cudn find him anywhere!!!
and i was dying.
then he finally appeared.
and he rubbed my tummie.
wth.
dun touch me man.
then me, jena, shereen, nisha went to have break.
then we went up.
bud then, zy had taken over.
so i could go patrolling.
while i was at the first floor.
shao wei came up and gave me a super duper freaking hot cupcake.
i swear it was so hot that i held it by the wrapper.
bloody hell.
then walked round and round.
hahax.
till nish tld me that she had a complain lar.
so i went up and talked to her.
then we had debrief.
then council meeting.
first me and fatin go madd.
we started chanting council mtg mrl. council mtg mrl.
then we ran out of the hall and rushed up the stairs.
then xiaohui and joce joined in.
xh was spraying water at jocelyn.
i shrieked and ran away.
then we went into the library to do our stuff.
aft that council members that were there snuck into the interview room.
what happened there i CANT TELL U!!!
HAWHAWHAW.
all i can say is congratulations to all the nominees.
hahahaha.
then went home aft that.


went online.
then sam smsed me.
asking me if she can go to my hse.
so i said okae.
then sharon smsed few mins ltr asking the same qn.
but its cox she had to use the printer.
her comp spoil.
then we talked about alot of rubbish.
then sam had to leave.
so left me and sharon.
i let her use the comp.
i happily watching CSI.
all of a sudden.
she ' EY!!' in my ear.
and i got a huge shock lar.
she burn and burn and burn the CDs.
including the funny album.
lao shu ai da mi.
wth?
who bloody names their albums liddat lar.
gay sial.
then sharon left.
and i'm free!!!!
whaahahahahhahhhhahahhaa.

my long lost friends

went for the 2nd interview.
sat there frm 3pm onwards.
we were shown the entire freaking file on what biomagnetism is lar.
wth.
i was thinking to myself.
'WHY do they keep such a thick file on biomagnetism??'
gay lar.
then we sat there and had a chat with my friend.
we were going back to primary school memories and all.
talking abt ppl who left in our primary one year and all.
then abt our classmates.
then glenn the handsome.
bloody hell.
it felt good catching up with the memories.
then we sat there and listened to that stupid daniel talking abt his whole bloody life.
so bloody boring.
we were supposed to meet the director lar.
bud we bloody sat there for 3hours and stone.
wtf man.
in the end when i finally asked whether we're gonna see the director.
the stupid daniel finally told me that we were hired and that can come down for training.
me and bedah were like wtf?!!
we sat there 3hours for bloody nothing lar.
we din even know how much our pay is lor.
waste my time only.
so aft that we went home.



@home.
went online.
kena bomb by seos.
abt the olympics and consent forms.
bloody gay lor.
i tot what happened lar.
then i went to friendster to check if i had anything.
i saw some guy named glenn.
reminded me of my old old friend.
and i tried looking for him on Friendster.
and i found him lar.
he's soo handsome!!
wth.
too bad he's my bro.
if not arh.
dun say already lar.

then adrian added me.
and i had like a really really long chat with him.
he's so different now.

and its fiona and the two towers now.
cox i'm like 164.
and the two of them are like 17plus and 180.
sooo gaayy!!!
i'm soo short!!
-pulls face
but i am so freaking glad that i found them on Friendster.
-big grin


then nigel came and asked me LAME questions.
wth.
=))
then i was telling him abt my two tall friends and he exclaimed:
'they eat alot of LONG BEANS arh???!!!!'
u had no idea how loudly i laughed at that lar.
bloody hell.
nigel.
u alwaes kill me with your roadkill.

smoking

i woke up thinking that i wasnt gonna go out todae.
was online the whole afternoon.
then at 7pm.
bedah had to go and page me on msn.
she asked me out.
n we settled on a movie.
then i asked her to check out the movie timings.
and she did.
we were gonna watch mr and mrs smith.
then when i reached.
i wanted to go buy tix n bedah told me that the movie was NC16.
and i was like 'yarh meh?'
and she was like 'yarh. i din kw The Jacket was.'
in my mind i was like 'excuuse me? the Jacket? who told u we watching the jacket??'
and in the end we cudn watch anything thanks to her.


bahh.
what are friends for.
dun watch then dun watch lar.
so we went to mac and had fries.
then she suggested to go snikomg.
so we went and go a pack of slims.
then we walked all the way to *nigel's place.
and then to the 7-11 near the area.
aft that we went under 365 and sekomd somemore.
then we sat the bus and went home.
i saw this beeg fat humungous oh-so-huge cockroach.
it was scuttling towards me.
all hell broke lose.
i think i broke the national record for 100M sprint.
bloody hell.
then i came home to use the comp.



my dear legin.
you are such a lovable person.
i hate you but i love you too.
but sometimes you just need to know how to make somebody feel better.
esp if its a girl.
[okae.i know u dun think of me as a girl.but wth.]
as they say.
'hell hath no fury when a woman knows scorn'
u bet your peanuts that this saying is true.
i'm been thru alot legin.
we mite never meet again aft your Os.
bud i know that you'll take some time off for a friend.
to come over to my workplace and shout my name loudly.
making me duck under the table in shame.
and u'll stick your big head under the table and ask me what am i doing under the table.
then i'll come out from under the table looking as if i grew a tomato for my face.
and tell you to go away.
such little thing make life alil more interesting you know.
how much fun can that be.
imagine you in mcdonalds wearing their dumb uniform.
HAWHAWHAW.
what a joke.

my job

bedah came to my house to iron her shirt!!
her iron spoil.
then we had fun looking at some friendster fotos.
then we left for the interview.



got lost at tanjong pagar.
i swear i cant fathom how the 'gar-men' bulit this laybrinith.
bloody gu niang.
we walk and walk and walk.
finally reach the stupid place.
then we felt outta place.
cox literally EVERYBODY was in office wear.
the guys were all in long sleeve shirts and ties.
the ladies in prim proper skirts.
me and bedah had jeans on.
i had sneakers.
bedah had doc martens.
i wore a shirt.
she wore a blouse dat din go with her outfit.
howw gaayyy!!!
argh.
then met up with my friend.
went into the office.
i swear i've never felt soo out-of-place before.
then we filled up the application forms.
the forms are gay!

they asked :' describe a short plan that you propose to help in the increment of the company in terms of business revenue.'

wtf?

who askes questions like these???

n there was like no answer to that lar.

cox i dun even know what is the company or my job about.

then we went on a 'tour'.

everywhere we went introductions were made.

there was like special emphasis on what kind of cars the different directors drove.

who bloody cares?

i care abt the freaking pay.

and there were different different smaller holdings within the company.

the different directors and the managers of the company were all under 25.

under 25 i tell you.

and the youngest manager is this 15 year old guy.

FIFTEEN.

i din type wrongly.

dats like a miracle.

proven.

i want to salute this guy.

then we got this interviewer.

he's like 18 or something.

damn young.

and he's interviewing us.

good lord.

i swear that company is an eye opener.

and i think we both got the job.

the pay should be damn high arh.

my fren gets 1000plus plus.

kill me pls.

that CAN feed me for a mth.

plus support my shopping sprees.

God. gimmie a high pay.

i'm unique =))

got a job

serious window shopping was done today.
-sigh-
money is the root of all evil.
yes?



i got this job offer.
either as a coordinator, management, supervisor or admin.
i'm going for the interview tml.
argh.
the pay is freaking high.
i can work part time and still get 1000plus.
at least that's what my friend says.
then at least i have a source to feed my xtravagant sprees.
cox my allowance cant keep up with me.
so wish me luck.
i need the job man.



hahahahahax.
jena n bedah have muscle aches all over.
cox they played netball ytd.
gay lar.
they play netball like fish outta water?
whatever.
i dun know what i'm talking abt.
i'm drunk.

House Olympics1

i'm soo furreaking pissed with MSN.
bloody hell.
i cant bloody sign in lar.
grrrr.


i dun understand what's your problem.
whenever i ask you a question that concerns a thing that needs to be compromised.
you run away from it.
you always run away from your problems.
i dun know how have i not realised that till now.
you always had the weakness of deciding a compromise.
and now i'm not gonna be soft hearted anymore.
i'm gonna be the hard faced bitch that you hate.
shucks to you.


todae was the first day of House Olympics.
argh.
vishal had like no voice to start with.
and all i can say is that they have no communication.
in the end.
louise and me had to take over some stuff.
-sigh-
my life just never fails to bombard me with such stuff.
just eat me man.

bye

for the past two days.
i've bin really really busy with the olympics.
bud it doesnt help when i'm being pressured to push the tempo.
the stress.
the anger.
the frustration.
the event managing me isn't there anymore.
its getting harder and harder for me to focus on tings anymore.


i dun feel u people there anymore.
is it me?
i sorta need u people here right now.
bud i guess somethings are ruined.
by me.
by the feelings.
by others.
by the circumstances.
by the anger.
i shall learn to live without feelings.
n be like shaiful.
isnt that great?
bud then again.
i wudn b me again would i?
goodbye or hello??

watever

i stayed at home the whole day!
what an accomplishment.
okay.
whatever.
-rolls eyes-


i guess sumone's not very happy.
it isnt my fault that i cant recieve the mail frm u what.
blame yahoo.
ugh.
watever.

first.
my parents are going to china.
n they are not bringing me.
then i found out that my sister is going.
which is so damn biased.
n now i hafta stay home with grandma????
HELLO???
i'm seventeen here???
gimmie a break.
i fucking dun care what you think.
i do whatever i want.
u CANT STOP ME.
N FUCK U.

the funnie side of life.

went shopping with sam!
okay.
i swear this is the first time i went shopping without money.
i dun know how i got thru the dae.
my mummie refuses to gimmie money.
becox i spent 340 aft i visited my optician.
-grinx-
mummie got a shock when she got the bill.
bud she coolly pull out a plastic and swiped it.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
n now she doesnt want to gimmie money.
=(
dats gay man.
anywae.
sam wanted to try out nydc.
she had lasanga[sp?]
and i had three amigos w rice.
wahhhhh.
fucking full sial.
damn stressed arh.
trying to finish the stupid plate of food.
i swear arh.
the plate got magic in it.
cox the food was never ending no matter how much i ate.
basket.
then we went to check out the movies.
sam wanted to watch coach carter.
which i watched oreadi.
so i jux accompanied her to watch it another time.
it was as good as ever.
hah.
then we went down to bugis to get sam some clothes.
picked out this top.
it flares out frm under the boobs.
damn nice.
one top dat i alwaes wanted.
hah.
then she din feel like shopping for bottoms anymore.
n we passed this shop that was damn pink inside.
n i hate pink.
sam said she liked the pink skirt.
n we went in.
then i saw the skirt in another colour.
even nicer then pink.
of course. ALL colours are better then pink.
then she bought it in the end.
so she bought a full outfit.
hah.
then we went home.
on the train.
both of us were sleeping.
n all of a sudden.
my reflexes made me jump.
like a jolt outta my dream.
sam n the man in front of me got a shock.
sorry man. my reflexes are gay.
then when we were abt to go to the interchange.
bedha smsed and asked me to go drink.
wahhhhhhhh.
okay.
so i went.
n she went tanning without me lar.
wtf.
thanks bedah.
thanks alot.
poohhhh.
then went home aft that.

losing it.

i finally finished my exams.
i'm so fucking screwed.
we jux had to shout to the xpress ppl n tell them dat we finished our exams.
cox they havent.
HAHAHAHA.
wad a joke.
-i hope u love your prezzie-

the pain of having to go thru life's hurts n traumas.
i'm losing it again.

hah

i guess i havent been the fiona that u ppl hate.
i've become the evolved version i suppose.
wadever.

guess some vips read my blog.

read on.

awwwwww.

i got poa n maths tml.

kill me pls?

to sam.

i dun know how can u risk our friendship for four ppl.

two u hate.

one u're confused abt.

n one who's a teacher.

i dun know.

i wun pick up ur calls.

cox i dun know if someone's listening in or what i say will be repeated.

i hate the 'its for your own good'.

fuck that.

u never knew what i went thru.

so u cant say that.

u DUN KNOW the meaning of that.

in fact.

i tink u know nothing.

u will never understand the hurts n pains that i went thru.

not even the greatest genius can fathom what i'm thinking.

n guess what?

you're nowhere near that.